Speechless

I'm changing into somebody that I don't recognize... I hate myself and all that I can do is try to be a better person. I mean, I try to do the best things, and I try to at least know consciously that I am doing the right thing. Sometimes I slip, and end up in situations where I wish I hadn't done what i did... and it's the worst feeling. Regret wouldn't even be the right words to say... it's more like a piercing feeling of guilt and resentment. Now that those things have occurred... I don't even know what to say... i feel so bad and i know that this is so much more terrible than it seems. i guess nobody's perfect.
i hope that i will become a better person, and the first step is just simply not committing the same mistakes twice...............