Mid-20 Crisis

so suddenly i need to be responsible and be an adult. it never dawned on me that this day would come. i never knew that this is how i would feel. i actually thought that it would feel pretty damn good to graduate after five long years of being ms.superwoman-doing-everything-and-everything-at-once-and-eating-in-front-of-the-computer. all the thoughts that come to my mind these days are negative... worrying about not finding a job, worrying and starting to think that perhaps i had made the wrong decision going into new media instead of arts management (can you believe that???). i started to doubt a lot of things in my life; what and why i'm doing certain things, and whether or not i'll be doing the right thing or if life will lead me to the right direction. this is all normal right? i started to eat a lot more often than i did before... i got tired more easily... everything that i'm doing now seemed to require a lot more effort than before, and i was loosing my patience... stress does that to me ... sometimes wanting something just "that" bad results in this.