it's 1:54am.... there is nothing to do. I love my laptop. I need to do more healthy things on the weekend instead of drinking.

drinking is causing me to get fat and my liver to hurt. is ur liver on the bottom left of your pelvis? hahahahahhaahhahahahaha- it's probably deteriorating as we speak here. anyway, i'm looking forward to designing my new sound design website for the wicked sound prof- he's amazing. amazing in the sense that he completely loves what he's teaching, and inspires us to do well in his class. i know that i haven't been myself lately and i'm sorry to those who have felt neglected and/or dry as a result of this- i'm sorry and i didn't mean it in any shape or form. yes, i've had my fun, so i'm back and i'm ready to get back to school, stop drinking and do some work. i've been so behind... i suddenly just thought about david, and i wonder how he's doing? david if u're reading this, i really want to quit smoking, but then again everything else seems like it's out of my control. feels a bit scary, not knowing what lies ahead, but at the same time a bit exciting too because nobody knows what will happen in the next two minutes, let alone the next two days. my plan is to just stop drinking, get back in shape and quit smoking. - hah, sounds like a mouthful of words - lol - that came out of nowhere. i feel physically unhealthy, as if my whole body's swealling up as a result of excessive partying and not eating right. i'm sitting here typing this and thinking and listening to commit suicide music (as rachelle would put it)- so she tells me to listen to soca (have no idea what they're saying, but i guess that's the whole point - careless happiness?) i'm gonna set boundaries for myself and really get back on track- see, how i'm not even using capitals and/or correct punctuation in this? hahaha. i've got some good ideas for my sound project, and hopefullly i'll put this with my portofolio =)
bought some jeans today from jean machine, and they looked better when i was there, because they look like crap when i got home- so mrs mandy will come with me to find the right one on the weekend =) i want my life back- i don't want to smoke anymore and i want to be fit again- need to accomplish these things.