you know that feeling when you do something and you know that it's wrong, but you do it anyway because it feels right, but then it's wrong, and then you know deep down inside tht it's so wrong, but you do it anyway? i'm feeling that right now. as hard as it is to stop it- i need to stop it and get back into here... what's happening right now.

anyway, went shopping today as a remedy and it will be better